I Dream Of...
Okay, so I am not sure if I will have a chance to post tonight so I figured I might as well do it while I have the time. Since I have posted some "gossip" it is now time to post some personal stuff. :-) I find it very hard for me to write something that I feel is honest and lyrical without writing it as a poem or something similar. So since I seem to have a hang-up or writers block and since it's just a little to early for liquor I will just post another poem and hope this one doesn't put anyone to sleep.
I wrote this poem because it is often a "thing" that I feel, this alone-ness that separates me from other people,e from other groups. My mom is adopted and we don't know who the biological parents are and my mother doesn't know who my father is, so I am kinda up in the air when it comes to heritage or ethnic background. What's really fun is going to any new doctor and having no answers for the family background questions, and THEN having to explain my white trash background. It always gets me a smile, those lovely pity, half embarrassed, "oh I have to get out of here fast" smiles. So after all the garbage I give you I Dream Of...
I have no people to call my own
No culture or heritage to write about
My people do not struggle
And I have no history I am alone in time
Walking aimlessly through pages
Relating to no one
Asking and Begging to be a part of something
Can I be your sister?
Can I sing your songs?
Can I eat your food?
But I do not belong
I have no place, no people, no home
What I want is to know myself
To wrap myself in saris and kimonos
To speak a language that has been spoken for centuries
To cook food filled with spice and history
To hear elders sing their song of sorrow
And tell their tale of joy
To hear the wolves call out to me
And the wind whisper my name
But I do not belong
The wind is silent
And the huts are empty
I am alone sitting on the red clay dirt
As the fire is smoking
And the night is hushed
I call out in my voice And receive no reply
I look at my skin And wonder its origins
I wonder and dream of a place where I am welcomed
A place where they sing to me
Where they wrap me in their silks and woven cottons
Where the women's wrinkles tell of their life
And of their accomplishments
Where the men's grainy laughs echo in the caves
And the children run free
Safe in the knowledge of who they are
And As I lay in the grass I can feel the dew,
Smell the rich dirt
The sky is filled with millions of stars
And the wind is caressing my skin
I dream of a time when the earth welcomes me
When the sky embraces me
And the wind carries my dreams
When the moon looks down upon my face
And blesses me with a past
4 Comments:
Breathtakingly beautiful. I hope that one day soon, Vi, you feel you are home. You have a sister in me and that's a start...for both of us.
I have never been a poetry person but that was really very nice..
My mother was adopted also and though i knew who my father was i never met him...yeah it is all sorts of fun coming up with a family history for doctors lol...
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Thanks for visiting over at WT! I don't know how much of a sense of me you'll get from past posts - there aren't very many as I'm new to blogging. I look forward to visiting yours, especially after reading this poem - it's lovely. I'm no poet, so I really appreciate when those who are put their work out for me to marvel at.
Wow, that's a gorgeous poem. I'm also adopted and I can totally relate to your feelings here.
You must live near me, we have a lot of red dirt down here. :)
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