Lyrics...

It's been awhile since I even cared what a song has said, it's been awhile since I could relate. I just wanted to post these two songs, that at the time I loved (still do). Mariah Carey - Outside Lyrics It's hard to explain Inherently it's just always been strange Neither here nor there -- always somewhat out of place everywhere Ambiguous -- without a sense of belonging to touch Somewhere halfway -- feeling there's no one completely the same Chorus: Standing alone -- eager to just believe it's good enough to be what you really are But in your heart uncertainty forever lies and you'll always be somewhere on the outside Early on, you face the realization you don't have a space where you fit in And recognize you were born to exist Chorus (1x) And it's hard And it's hard And it's hard Irreversibility Falling in between And it's hard And it's hard to be understood as you are As you are Oh, and God knows that you're standing on your own -- blind and unguided Into a world divided you're thrown Where you're never quite the same although you try -- try and try to tell yourself you really are But in your heart -- uncertainty forever lies and you'll always be somewhere on the outside You'll always be somewhere on the outside Another song by Mariah, it was the same CD, that came out when I could relate... Close My Eyes... I was wayward child With the weight of the world That I held deep inside Life was a winding road And I learned many things Little ones shouldn't know But I closed my eyes Steadied my feet on the ground Raised my head to the sky And though time's rolled by Still feel like that child As I look at the moon Maybe I grew up A little too soon Funny how one can learn To grow numb to the madness And block it away I left the worst unsaid Let it all dissipate And I try to forget But I closed my eyes Steadied my feet on the ground Raised my head to the sky And though time's rolled by Still feel like that child As I look at the moon Maybe I grew up A little too soon Nearing the edge Obvious I almost Fell right over A part of me Will never be quite able To feel stable That woman-child falling inside Was on the verge of fading Thankfully I Woke up in time Guardian angel I Sail away on an ocean With you by my side Orange clouds roll by They burn into your image And you're still alive (You're always alive) But I closed my eyes Steadied my feet on the ground Raise my head to the sky And though time's rolls by Still feel like that child As I look at the moon Maybe I grew up A little too soon